OMG how many years have passed since I got
nominated awards from Blogger fellas? Thanks to the cute and adorable Aimee
this time for the award! This is a weezy award, and to be very honest, I just
heard about it now LOL. Now let’s get into the rules of the award first:
Rules:
1. Make a "note" to the person who give this award.
2. Nominate 3 (or more) friends that you think they are close/good/kind/etc. to you.
3. Give a note to each of them.
4. Tag this award on those friends you chosen.
5. You can tag back if you want.
*NOTE: The more you received this award, the more it shows that you are friendly and like to be their friend. :)
1. Make a "note" to the person who give this award.
2. Nominate 3 (or more) friends that you think they are close/good/kind/etc. to you.
3. Give a note to each of them.
4. Tag this award on those friends you chosen.
5. You can tag back if you want.
*NOTE: The more you received this award, the more it shows that you are friendly and like to be their friend. :)
First of all, note for Aimee!
And now, here are the people I nominate:
Joveeta,
Margy,
Phanie,
Mindy!
And now, here are the people I nominate:
Joveeta,
Margy,
Phanie,
Mindy!
That’s it! Don’t
you think my notes are cute? I edited and made one by one carefully, I hope
those I nominated would like it and gimme some notes back!
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Aside from the
award, I have things to share to you girls and maybe, can you gimme some opinions
regarding my “confusions”?
As maybe some
of you have known, I just turned 17 this year. I’m now in my last year of high
school, meaning next year I really have to go to university to continue my
study. And this is what my confusions are all about. Questions like “where will
you go” or “what subject will you take” is too common for me lately but not
very depressing (already), but what really wandered around both in my heart and
my mind is:
Will you be able to fulfill all the
required terms & conditions?
As for my
grades and the scores I got during my previous years, they were all neither bad
nor excellent—all around 8.5 like so. I honestly admit that I accepted some
letters of offering to universities which affiliates to my school about the
free registration fee and they were only issued to around 50-80 people out of
the total 400 students of my batch, but none of the universities have
interested me to go in there. My friends kept telling me for not being stupid and threw all the chances I'd got just to go for something bigger and maybe, unreachable. I dream for something bigger and…well, am I wrong for doing so?
This is the case one, by the way.
Jakarta was on
the top of my destination list when it comes to choosing universities, but
suddenly it was announced that one government-funded university in Hong Kong
was about to come to my school and doing one private presentation, and it was
so exclusive even to join the presentation you gotta sign up first. I signed up
and attended the presentation with all excitement, the butterflies on my
stomach were all wilder than ever—wilder than the moment when I saw cute guys
around, seriously—and my brain entered the clown & circus mode. You mustn't wonder how much I love Hong Kong from the people to the country itself from the
posts about them here. I honestly say to you here, just right after I got home
from HK it’s like I badly wanted to live like forever in that country. And that’s
how all the confusions started. Case two:
How do I happen to be granted a
scholarship there?
My score met
the minimum requirements, but the information I gained from the website told me
quickly as non-local applicants are not to be granted any financial
assistance. Is it true? The living expenses in Hong Kong is sort of…crazy,
especially for the accommodation there. The tuition fee in Polytechnic
University—yep, that’s what I was talking about in these last 2 paragraphs—is not
really expensive for the international student like me, but it’s definitely
much more than what I have to spend for my school here. If there were a chance for scholarship, how
can I not try to apply?
The information
about the scholarship is still blurred until now, I don’t really know whom to
ask even my school claims to be their affiliate too. Sending our students there
had been done for the last 3 years, but I’m not sure if I can really get 100%
scholarship there. God…this is the case
three.
I know I have
nothing to be afraid of actually, as trying can never be wrong—moreover it becomes
a truly important moment of life, eh—and there’s nothing wrong to dream big,
right?
I wasn’t
actually over some famous names of universities, I’m more after what I can get
and do right after I finish my studies. And I choose Hong Kong now for my
destination, but only if I can get the scholarship because living there is
nothing I can afford right now L I wish to have a career there so bad, and I think to continue my study
there would be a great stepping stone for that dream of mine!
After a big
psywar both in my head and heart, here what I’m going to do next:
1. I want to apply to the
PolyU Hong Kong and do the interview—whether I
fail or succeed, I will try my best anyway.
2. I have also an admission
backups here in Indonesia, and still I choose to try my best to get the scholarship here
(in UPH Jakarta too!)
Of the things above…you know now I’m a big dreamer. I dream big, but
nothing is too big or too impossible until you try and pray hard for it. No
dreams will come real without any actions and prayers. The confusions are
actually no needed and they lead you to self-destruction, and yes I’ve been
through that phase. I talked to a lot of people about my crisis and soon I
realized I should’ve worried over everything. Now all I want to do is all the
best I can do, whether it’s to do interviews or to write some essays. Wish me
luck, kay!
